Rhythmic Spasms

2003-03-06T19:20:00.000-08:00

just came back to poke about...reminded me of all the times I blogged in Singapore and of all the things I did....smile...

2003-02-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

I've moved to a new home. Click here Come and visit me! Update me too, please

2003-02-01T10:44:00.000-08:00

ok this is majorly in the works,I'll fix it later

2003-01-31T19:57:00.000-08:00

2003-01-31T19:45:00.000-08:00

2003-01-31T19:02:00.000-08:00

"I used to think as i looked at the Hollywood night,
there must be thousands of girls sitting alone like me,
dreaming of becoming a movie star.
But i'm not going to worry about them.
I'm dreaming the hardest.'"
-Marilyn Monroe

2003-01-31T11:34:00.000-08:00

Don't scream Su, but Aaron skates. Either that or he keeps a skateboard around as a footrest and finds skater shoes really comfortable.

2003-01-31T11:13:00.000-08:00

Got an email from Jia Hui today yay, so happy, she rocks. :) Got the below from an email from Wivinia, is this me? ;)
"ARIES March 21-April 20 Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologize, which makes them easier to forgive."
Does that make me sound like a pissy bitch or what =P

2003-01-31T06:55:00.000-08:00

Received email no.3 just now and just wrote "Go away and let me forget you. It's hard enough already." It's over.

2003-01-31T06:34:00.000-08:00

Saw this at a shopping mall 2 days ago, "There is no such thing as a final sale". So true. :) Happy CNY to everyone out there you guys.
Talked to Steph and Faliq this morning and I was so super tired that I think I sounded as hoarse as a crow ha...But it was great talking to them, called Gow but someone was in Perth for a one day vacation..ha that's so kiasu Gow! :P Ended chem early so I'm back online,think I'll go back to my dorm and try calling Su and Gwen.. :o) Coolsers.

2003-01-30T10:32:00.000-08:00

Miss you too horsey, hope your mane (get it....har.har.har.) is lookin good for CNY and school's going great for you. :)
Watched The Joy Luck Club in humans class today, made me realise how much I don't understand my mum and where she's coming from because of our different cultures and world views. The mothers in the movie remind me so much of my mum,I think I understand my mum a bit more because of them. Like when I was younger and she'd go on and on about how I was in a gifted school and winning chess trophies to like everyone she met and I was so embarassed at being the center of attention and talked on and on about, I realise was because she wasn't living her life through me but showing how much she loved me...stuff like that. I don't think mum and me are ever going to be close, we're just so different but at least I can try to understand her more and be a better daughter...It's hard being a chinese daughter. I'm not "chinese" chinese but my mum is and that's why a lot of times I don't understand why she does stuff and things like that and I'd get so fustrated...but I think I do more now. It would have been so much easier if I was a guy, because when it comes to mothers and daughters things get all twisted up and knotted. heart of my heart,blood of my blood. It's like emotional blackmail.

2003-01-30T10:26:00.000-08:00

Why can't he bugger off and leave me alone..If he's not going to do anything just do me a favour and leave me alone so I can forget...Received email no.2 today and I didn't know what to do,delete or reply? So in the end I just wrote "I want to see you become an epitome to entomology pinning". I just felt so mad and upset and disappointed that I wanted to express it in some way. I should have probably left things as "drop dead" and reply no more but I didn't. Which I will from now on. I don't need reminders. In fact I shouldn't have sent the email at all, I regret sending it but wth, it's the last one forever and ever so no biggie.

2003-01-29T21:05:00.000-08:00

I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you do your homework
I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb Timberland boots
and the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
it even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around
and the fact that you didn't call
but mostly I hate the way that I don't hate you
not even close,
not a little bit,
not even at all.

2003-01-29T08:41:00.000-08:00

Just had extremely worrying thought,I was sitting in the living room this morning talking v. loudly to Su (the connection sucked) about how hot Aaron (the hot neighbour) is and I'm wondering if he heard me through the walls. I don't think so, I was two rooms away but maybe. I mean I can hear his damn music when I go into Nora's room,the apts are adjoining, for God's sakes. AAAAA!!! haha this is so hysterical,I really doubt so but for a good 5 seconds I was having a heart attack...

2003-01-29T08:37:00.000-08:00

Wow it feels so good to be immature. :) (Gwen,Gow,Steph and Su-Ching knows what I'm talking about ha) Let him worry about that, slimeball. I talked to Gwen,Nidhi and Su this morning which was SO wonderful! I was using a calling card (10 cents a min for intnl calls) and we talked for at least 1 hr then I had to run off for class, I had no time to change so I ended up going to class with my face unwashed,wearing pj's and my hair in a messy ponytail and running through the corridors so I wouldn't be late ha. :P I tried calling Faliq,Gow and Steph but I didn't have their home no's and they weren't picking up their handphones (it was between 9-11 pm sing time that I called) so no go...Email me your home phone no's and I'll try again k? I'm thinking of calling you guys like maybe 3 times a week, if you are free enough..God knows I have enough free time. >:-) Oh god I can hear the upstairs room's music through the ceiling, I feel like pounding on the ceiling with the broom and telling them to shut the hell up...gah. Uncle Cracker my ass.

Update on hot neighbour (he got his status upgraded from cute):
I walked past his room (in the morning) on my way to the trash room to throw away the garbage and I saw him walking around without his shirt on. It was a 'you-had-to-be-there' moment. He looked all tousled and sleepy..and idiot that I am I just smiled uncertainly (I think I was definitely staring) and walked by...whatever happened to my big mouth? Oh well at least I can stare. right. =P

2003-01-28T11:05:00.000-08:00

Oh my God,I just heard this on Friends; (watching season 1, "the episode with the boobies"
The shrink to Chandler "Well it seems that you have intimacy issues. You use your humour to keep people at a distance."
It's like a note from God or something.

2003-01-28T10:35:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah and Steph,I am glad that you're doing fine now. MYL :)

2003-01-28T10:30:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, update on cute curly haired guy in my Cal class. Have given up on him, I realised that the reason why his hair is curly is because he DOESN'T brush his hair. Ew. I was looking (covertly) at him today in calculus and I wasn't even sure if he bathed today,he had a definite unwashed look. Was it the 5 o'clock shadow,the crumpled t-shirt, the scratching at his chest, I don't know but he's now in my nada list. On a highnote, realised that my dorm neighbour is also quite cute. (Not the gay one). His name's Aaron and he borrowed a pot from me today. He's tall and's got like this broken nose, light brown hair and hazel skin..am I making sense? Whatever. :)

2003-01-28T10:22:00.000-08:00

Steph,when am I -ever- self-pitiful? ;) except when I miss a great sale. (don't get me started on what I missed when I shopped on Sat, I'm =really= thinking about starving (missing lunch) for a month and going back there to shop. Those kneelength tan leather boots are calling my name. (they'd look SO good with a jean skirt)) Teachers suck,I recommend sucking up Nutella by the jar when they yell at you. Don't worry though, they're all going to be re-incarnated as punk students when they die. :)

2003-01-28T10:13:00.000-08:00

Nobody will sympathize with a person who constantly lets chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage them. We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us, and then we start regretting, which results in misery. Lost time is NEVER gained again Even impossible says... I - M - POSSIBLE!!!

I got this from a crap chainmail but this is so true. I am so P.O'd!

Today I bought my pink beret, luv ya, Gow,Steph and Faliq for giving me the idea to buy one. And you know something? I just saw Reese Witherspoon wearing one in Legally Blonde. She has such good taste. :)

2003-01-27T20:08:00.000-08:00

You'd better love me Gwen, I just fought with Syl over you. I am so mad at him, I can't believe he swore at me. Whether I am right or wrong, as a friend, he shouldn't have, and that's why I'm so pissed, friends don't tell their friends to fuck off. That they're idiots,totally wrong maybe but when you say "go fuck off" you're basically telling them screw you, I'm disregarding you,your feelings and anything about you, you mean no more to me. It's ok to disagree, it's not ok to drop friends. And that's why I'm so mad. I don't think there's anything Syl could do to make up for it, he broke my trust. But you're worth it Gwen... :/

2003-01-27T17:41:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking about Gwen's quote below. It's been with me the whole day..I'm a sucker for beautiful words. and I hope that soon he'll only be a memory in words...I'm mourning not for him but for myself. For caring and not being cared for back. It'll go away but until it does that's how it is and I can't pretend it didn't happen. Nothing 'happened' but I started to care and I can't help that, we were friends for a year for God's sakes, it's not like he was a stranger. It's hard to explain. So tucked away in a little corner of me, is a memory in words.

And after I buy my pink beret, meet more people, go out more with my roomies it'll get better. Saw the first guy I thought was cute today. He was in my Cal 2 class, brown curly mess of hair,tall, was pretty cute...looked just like that guy in Drive Me Crazy, Melissa Joan Hart's bf in the movie,v cute with skater shoes.. :)

2003-01-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

first you forget the chin.. then a while later you forget his smile.. then try as you might the nose and the eyes become blurred.. and soon he'll be gone. just a memory in words. -Gwen

2003-01-26T05:49:00.000-08:00

Andrew called me at 4 am in the morning just now. He didn't realise the time difference was so great, so I was like "whaaa...unh huh..yep yep..yawn.." But it was nice to hear from him again (he's the first person to have called me,yay) realised that I miss drew a lot,he's like one of the sweetest guys I know.. :)

2003-01-25T22:10:00.000-08:00

Which Reese Witherspoon are you?
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2003-01-25T18:14:00.000-08:00

Major Retail Therapy today. :) In the afternoon went with Steph (my roomie) to Eaton shopping centre, this big shopping centre in downtown Montreal. It's 4 stories with a glass roof and LOTS of shops. Me and steph worked our way from one level to another and I think that we covered at least 30+ shops. whew! Have come to realisation that I can forget about eating this month and may also possible need to hock at least one organ. Hmm maybe I should have rotted my organs last night. =)

Purchases

low cut black leather high-heel boots $24

black sweatpants with "booty-licious" printed in red on butt -$10

dk blue sweat pants with "princess" printed in light blue on butt -$10

Tan flare dress pants -$19

Olive green knit turtleneck sweater -$20

looovely underwear from victoria's secrets, tommy hilfiger undies-$4

Sleeveless black shirt with criss-cross laces at neck (both me and steph have it!) -$10

Deep purple scarf and purple earmuffs -$6

See? I'm dead!
and next weekend I'm going to this underground 30km long shopping centre..aaaaaa. guess I can't go after all. bah

2003-01-25T07:29:00.000-08:00

It's 10 am in Montreal and 11 pm in Singapore and noone's online so I'm soooo bored. Last night Steph's old Montreal friend whom she hasn't seen in years came over with a friend at 10 and they stayed up until 2 am talking, believe it or not. They were talking in french which ws fun to listen to because if I listen hard I can get the gist of what they're saying. So I got to practice my french and my french slang. :) They brought maple syrup whiskey which I tried which smells like rubbing alcohol, tastes bitter but has syrup aftertaste. Was in bad mood because of Jerk and gave serious thought about getting drunk but in the end decided not to because I'm too sensible to let my organs rot for the sake of HIM. Plus getting drunk in front of Steph&co would be a bit too embarassing... ;) Steph's friend's were funny though, I think they were high (hello they were swigging the whiskey like orange juice) so they did dumb stuff like one hugging Nora (my other apt-mate) and asking her to go to bed with him...ok it was interesting for me because I haven't seen any dumb drunks here before. :)

2003-01-24T19:24:00.000-08:00

Btw Ra, Su-Ching likes Neil Gammon too.

2003-01-24T19:11:00.000-08:00

Spent day putting up pics of my dorm and me online. Talked to Su and Steph and Yvonne today which was really nice. I'll just say it again but I miss y'all. After a v. long talking session with Steph have finally decided to give up on Jerk. If he really cared about me he would have made a greater effort to stay in touch with me or talk to me. He didn't. One (short) email does not count as hope. Even steph says he seems all nonchalent. Personally in my heart of hearts I don't think he even liked me at all, he just didn't want to say so because I was leaving anyways so why hurt me? I don't really know but I'm full of doubts. What I do know is that I'm not waiting for someone who doesn't care for me. You simply can't care for someone more than they care for you or you'll just get hurt. So I'm letting go..

letting the wind take away everything until I don't feel anything anymore..

Tried my roomie's maple syrup whiskey tonight. Tasted really weird but had sweet aftertaste which was..interesting. :o)

2003-01-24T07:12:00.000-08:00

Want to see some pics of my school and dorm? Then click on My Pics. :)

2003-01-22T09:27:00.000-08:00

Nidhi,I want to get a tattoo too! I'm not sure of what (maybe a celtic sign, or a butterfly or a unicorn still not sure) but I do know I want it on my left or right shoulder blade or at my hips, just above my butt.But do you know it bleeds? My roommate has a tattoo of a bee (cause her surname is "honey". really. *lol*) on her back on the left hand side just above her butt and she said that when they tattoo it's a bit painful (it makes your BONES vibrate kind of) and it bleeds a bit too...so I'm super scared but I still want to do it. You want to do it together in June? Where in Singapore is good? tell me soon k. :)

2003-01-22T09:15:00.000-08:00

Legolas! Legolas! Legolas! Legolas!
ooo. ooo. ooo. oooOooOoooOoooo...... :)

2003-01-22T09:14:00.000-08:00

What Lord of the Rings Male and Mood Do You Desire?
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2003-01-22T09:11:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry Ra,but I looovvvvee Legolas too. sigh...*swoon* you take care of yourself gf. :)

2003-01-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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2003-01-22T09:05:00.000-08:00

You're fire! In general you're not a mean person but you can be very quick tempered, and boy, WHAT A TEMPER YOU CAN HAVE. You are angered very easily and you sometimes have anti-social habits.

What element are you?

2003-01-22T07:48:00.000-08:00

Faliq,I'll send you more letters soon. :oP and thank you for what you said in your blog. :) you guys are in my heart too.

2003-01-22T07:32:00.000-08:00

Feeling slightly sick, sick of school,sick of stuff. School's fine, just boring, hasn't started much,so not really that challenging. So basically I go to school,come back to my dorm and hang out with my roommates and pig out on junk food with them. I'm currently watching the first four seasons of Friends with them, (Steph's got all of the season's DVDs).

sigh. Miss my friends. At least I knew everything in Singapore. On tues I get to sit for a chem exam to see whether I can get into a higher level chem course. The chem guy doesn't believe I can pass,he said so to me but I don't give a damn,I know I can. Hello? Topics are: Stoichemistry,acids and bases,kinetics (ok need to study that),Ksp (only ONE K), titration curves (not that bad), molecular structure and pH,pOH. Like, I know them! So even though it's hard to study when the head of the chem department thinks you're going to fail, I'm going to try. Screw him. Like he knows the A level chem content at all? I don't think so. He's only giving me the exam because I asked for it and I'm soooo nervous. but I know I can do it. At least my mum's supporting me. She was disgusted that he thought I couldn't do it which cheered me up for a bit.. At least he could have been nicer to me and given me a chance. I know what he's thinking, "oh let her fail,it'll teach her a lesson for being cocky enough to think that she knows the course already.." Well I've got guts and I really believe that I do know this stuff already and the least he could do was give me a fair chance instead of prejurying me. I sat for one lesson of the course he wants me to be in and they were introducing atomic no's,weights,protons&electrons and basic properties of metals and non-metals! WTF? and that's only the beginning! The teacher even said he expected everyone not to know anything at all about Chem when they started. Jesu Maria but we did it all in sec 3 so up yours pal.

Well that's all of my bitching. I'll continue tmr with my friends tribute. :) Oh yeah here's my address and phone no, pleeaaase write or call me I'm sooo bored!
tel: 514-457-8080 extension no. 2034
attn: Chun Meng Nolan
John Abbott Housing Services
PO Box 2000
Sainte-Anne-de-Bellevue,Quebec,Canada
H9X 3L9

2003-01-19T13:46:00.000-08:00

Steph, 2 words, " United-Colors Kids" ;)

2003-01-19T13:45:00.000-08:00

Just realised that Steph and Faliq and me have the same blog format heh. Will change my blog's color when I have time. Spent whole day cleaning up my part of the dorn room, shopping for groceries, dying my hair roots (no spotty head for me!), moisturising (so dry here), shaving my legs, putting my clothes away,curling my hair, plucking my eyebrows...finally feel like I've returned to civilisation, have not done any of the above for the whole week since I've arrived in Montreal and I really feel like a cavewoman.
Met my 2 other dorm mates, Arianna and Nora, Nora's German, very cute accent, Arianna is Quebecois, very friendly and my own roommate (she has the lower bunk) is Stephanie who's this blonde from Vancouver and reminds me very much of that blonde in Ms.Congeniality, very nice, very sweet. Not sickingly sweet but cute sweet. She is so into Roxy, she has the towel,bedspread,sweater, everything! Even a Roxy nightlight. And Arianna is too, (tho Arianna is more billabong and quiksilver) that I suddenly feel my interest in it zoom to 0.
Dun wanna be like them! Heh. They're nice but they're not Singaporean so they sometimes don't get the jokes I say or things I say... Miss my friends a lot, at least they thought like me and understood me...Too American here! Not rirritating American but more like western outlook, every sentence begins with "like..." and so on....Feel very homesick, wish Gwen,Su-Ching,Gow,Steph,Michelle,Faliq,Jinesh,Nidhi,jia,Yvonne &everyone else who I forgot to add, were here with me.. So homesick for being with them again.

2003-01-17T18:58:00.000-08:00

"A Woman's Prayer"

Dear Lord,

So far today, I am doing all right. I have not gossipped, lost my temper, been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish or self-indulgent.

I have not whined, bitched, cursed or eaten any chocolate. I have not charged on my credit card.

However, I am going to get out of bed in a few minutes, and I will need a lot more help after that.

Amen

2003-01-17T10:35:00.000-08:00

blog of snot? EW! I don't even want to know about the state of your nostrils. omg nidhi, don't get me started on my eyebrows, I haven't plucked them in days and I think they're getting out of shape and I think I should make them thinner... it doesn't help that everyone here has great eyebrows!!!! and I'm not going to even talk about their complexions. Let's go bomb Bush yah... Well frog them I think I'm going back to my bunkbed to sulk. :) luv you too.

2003-01-17T10:25:00.000-08:00

What Pattern Are You?

Wow, I'm sassy, wild and naughty. Someone spank me.

2003-01-17T09:59:00.000-08:00

Am really, really annoyed, just realised I missed Gow and Faliq on the net by what, an hour or two? while I was running errands. Bummer. It's 2 am in Spore now, and everyone I know is asleep so I think I'll go have lunch (it's 1pm in Montreal). UGH. This so sucks!

2003-01-17T06:30:00.000-08:00

Bummer. noone's online tonight so I'm just stoning around, chatting with Syl..

2003-01-16T07:09:00.000-08:00

Faliq -What I think is special about Faliq is his ability to communicate. He can literally talk the leg off a horse. I think it's special because for me, even though I talk a lot, I find it hard to verbalise all that I want to say. Unless I really really concentrate it comes out all jumbled and mashed up but for Faliq when he says stuff, it comes out all smooth and concise which is why we find stuff he tells us really funny because he's able to say it right, you know with the right diction and words and pauses... It's hard to explain but you know how some people can tell stories but other pple can't? Faliq can.

Another special thing about Faliq is that he's deeply religious. He really believes and breathes Islam which I find admirable because it's hard to find people who really believe in stuff other than themselves or having fun. Perhaps if people were more religious and less selfish the world would be a better place. Plus, he's not a blind believer, like oh God says this therefore we must always do this, he's more of a thinking believer, like, what's the meaning behind the scripture? which I'm glad of because there are way too many stupid blind zealots today.

Faliq's also special in that he's really great to bitch with. ;) Ok that's just a sidenote, but I hate being nice all the time and it's always great to have someone you can bitch with and not make you feel guilty about bitching. And who's always on your side. Plus he's never late. (ok I always am but it's nice when you're on time not to have to wait for people. it shows politeness) And I can always count on him on fashion advice. Now if only I dressed more classy and less trailer trash that would help ha..

And lastly what I think is really special about Faliq is how he really loves kids and families. (you should see how he spoils his cousin) You can't not like kids and not be a great person. :)

ok freudian slip, you can't like kids and not be a great person. :)

2003-01-16T06:53:00.000-08:00

Was kind of sad today, because I read in Faliq's blog that sara was going w/ the debate pple to some debate workshop. I was feeling kind of territorial like "what, you've found a replacement for me already?" but then I realised that was kind of immature, I can't expect debate pple to hold my place open forever, I'm sure they need another person to complete the team and help out with debate stuff and so on. My tiny inner child is throwing a tantrum, but I know that as a friend, they're not going to "replace" me, it's just my irrational side speaking. Like, no! no! I'm part of the debate team, noone else can be! but I know that's just stupid, that what we have already won't change. =P

2003-01-15T07:54:00.000-08:00

Su Ching -what I think is really special about Su Ching is how artistically talented she is. She creates like these really cool things out of nothing. In her room she has this mirror, which she made herself, by breaking a normal mirror into little pieces then glueing them into this mosaic on her cupboard door. Once when I stuck these safety pins with beads on them, onto my bag, she told me that she did it already in sec school. I was so passe. =P She painted her nails black except for the cuticle area which I thought was cool and she can draw like these graffiti art on paper with just pens and markers. These are just small things but I think they're really special because I don't think anyone's managed to come up with these stuff but she does them because she's like establishing her own identity and style which I for one think is v. cool and unique. This world does NOT need more happy house stuff. She's really creative and professional. Like the stuff she makes? When I do them, it comes out looking like some 5 yr old did them but when she does, it comes out looking like it came from a store.
and she can dance. She only started clubbing like what, this june but after 3,4 times and she already managed to dance really well. Sigh. I know there's no hope for me (screw you Jinesh) but I though Su was either a) really clever to pick it up so quick b)graceful enough to have it come naturally.

And you know something? Su's really gorgeous. She's tall and slim and bronzed and pretty and no matter how often we tell her, she still doesn't believe she can be a model. It's kind of cute how she keeps on thinking that she's just ordinary at best because ususally pple who are as goodlooking as she is, are superconfident and assertive, usually annoyingly so and most of the time I just want to thrash them because they're sooo lucky and almost flaunting it. (yeah I'm jealous, screw you) It's only kind of cute because I wish Su would love herself more because she so deserves it. Me&Gwen do already. Oh well better that than some stupid popular chio bu I guess.

I think Su's cool too because she's interested in esoteric stuff. Local bands, the Beatles, watching local gigs (she intro'd them to me),pinky rings, vintage clothes. all these stuff (you tell me how many girls like them huh), which is so offbeat and outside the norm (lets kill N sync man) that I thought it was supercool that Su found out about them and liked them. Like I said Su's really unique. One of a kind. ;) These are just stuff that I've never heard about except from Su and maybe Gwen and that's why I think Su's so special, that she knows this stuff and likes them.

Lastly Su's really special in that she's a great friend. 1/3 of the unholy trinity. She'll say something and without meaning to, it just makes me laugh hysterically, she's always a shoulder to cry on (or on a phone to cry on), she'll give me advice which she thinks is best, not which makes me feel the best but which is the best which takes a rare friend to give, she gave me this superpersonal supercool xmas prezzie (damn I want to give something to top that now) and she has one of the biggest hearts ever. You can tell you know, it's hard to explain but it's just little things like her cooing over stuffed toys and kittens, how much she really hurts after some bastard did something, how she really loved cedar... she really cares about stuff that sometimes me&gwen have already hardened our hearts to because it hurts too much, and I hope that she never changes.

2003-01-14T10:53:00.000-08:00

Gowri- What I think is really special about Gowri is how she's always able to stay on top of the situation even when the rest of us are pissed off, running around like the proverbial headless chicken or just plain useless. Like at LTC, which was very exhausting physically and draining emotionally she managed to present a cohesive and professional cca exhibit when all I, for one, wanted to do was run the j2s down with a pitchfork. At debates, where we tend to joke around a LOT she's always the one to pull us back to the topic and make us focus when we go astray which we needed to do when we were training for nationals. It's not easy to tell your friends to shut up and get to work politely, and I thought it took courage (you try telling 3 of your friends to get back to work while still being friends then) but Gowri managed to do that and with tact, she never seemed bossy or controlling at all, just sensible. :)

Not only that I admire Gowri for her strong moral backbone. She's a seafood vegetarian and has been one for years even though I'm sure it's not easy at times, when at bbq's, after a tiring day, it's really difficult to find the right food and it's so easy to say fuggadabboutit and just get macs but no, she held on, and she's been vegetarian for years. :) Plus, Gowri's able to dream big! I think it's way cool that she's thinking about working with the UN and meeting Kofi Annan, it takes a real soul to aim for the
stars.
Lastly, I think Gowri's special in that she's a really caring person. She's the type who takes the trouble to stay in touch and remember the special events in your life, to do stuff for you out of the blue just to make you happy, to give without expecting anything, and to stay a loyal friend. When I got out of the hospital in Aug, she gave me this BIG PINK box full of sweets and a bubbles doll (yea!) and a card and I was really happy and touched that she took the time to remember me and give me something, and not just ANY something but a powerpuff girl doll :))) Debate chalet? she paid for it man. c'est tout. Xmas gift? she searched for hours for just the right gift for everyone. I hope the j1s this year really appreciate Gowri for what a cool babe she is.
So here's to Gowri for being a GREAT friend. Love you. :)

2003-01-14T06:56:00.000-08:00

Thought I was going to tell you about Montreal eh? Wrong! [mostly because after 2 mind-numbing days in a university town I don't have much to say heh] Anyways last night I was really missing my friends a lot so I decided I'd write something about what I think is really special about each of them.

2003-01-13T07:26:00.000-08:00

I've arrived safely in Montreal. Oh my God,everyone's speaking french..help! Write and email me IMMEDIATELY :)

2003-01-03T02:07:00.000-08:00

Am also pissed at Gordon's bunch for not coming. Like hello? Why not MY party? And if you think I'm nice, couldn't you rest assured that it's going to be a good party and come down? grrr.

Annoyed at SC for not letting me be a facil and for taking my photo off the SC board. What happened to leeway and discretion? Are we just going to obey the teachers like some SW villains in totatlity? Perhaps I'm asking too much, but after hearing stories of what SC pple are doing in other schools I wish SC was ALLOWED to be more fiesty and passionate.
My cousin's SC president fought for her to achieve her colors awards even though her grades were crap, NJ SC came up with J1 parties, other schools managed to get rules changed all we did was change the canteen food, something the school was going to do anyways.
I blame the teachers, why can't they be more open and creative? It's always, "Brother Paul this, Brother Paul that". Like, why can't they have the authority to make their own decisions instead of running to brother paul for approval for everything? Of course bro paul has to be informed but come on, they ask his approval for everything. My God. I blame brother paul for being so conservative.

That's just my opinion. I think the majority of SC is really great, just that the teachers suuuuckkk..

2003-01-03T02:03:00.000-08:00

My Party

1. This Sat at Lush, Mohd Sultan Road
Freeflow from 9 to 12
No techno
tickets are $20 beforehand, $25 at the door
No id needed
BE THERE AFTER ALL THE WORK I'VE DONE IN PLANNING AND ORGANISING IT, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. and I'm sorry to all the the people who've held parties, whom I've bitched about i.e. how crap it is, why are there no cute guys, why is it so crowded etc, I so understand now what you were going through and I totally empathise.

2002-12-27T04:05:00.000-08:00

Today I wanted to talk about how I find no guys cute and point out the deficiencies of guys race by race but I'm not going to.
You know why? Because of the gruesome pro-Palestine/anti-war photos Faliq sent me. There was a picture of a dead baby with a gunshot wound in his chest, in the next a close-up of his back with the hole clearly apparent and a bloodied section of flesh next to the whole.
In another was a little girl around 7,slumped against the inside of a car, eyes closed with blood running down her face and onto the upholstry. Being jaded, probably from today's media, I didn't find it very horrifying but it did make me think.
It was just so sad to see two innocents snuffed out like that because of a land dispute between two countries. Never to grow up, to love, to laugh, to smile, to dream... And you know what the worst part is? The whole disagreement arises from religious and racial reasons not rational ones.
I believe that noone should be killed for the sake of propounding one's view. Noone should die just to strongarm the other side into agreeing. When you take away the right of a person to live, it is murder not martyrism, freedom-fighting, patriotrism,unavoidable circumstances,killing infidels etc. Those kids had a right to live and neither Israel or Palestine should have taken it from them. I don't support wars and I believe that to justify violence it should only be in self-defense and the facts of the case brought before the public.
Israel and Palestine can call it any high-minded thing they want but we both know its because of other reasons.

And that's why I'm not going to talk about guys because it seems too shallow and petty to talk about today. Thank the Lord that I have the choice to indulge in shallow and petty things.

2002-12-25T23:13:00.000-08:00

On a sidenote, never go for a Hwa Chong party unless you really really like techno. Why was I dumb enough to go for a hwa chong party on xmas day?
A:Hwa Chong is not exactly known for its partying nature
B: Who the hell goes clubbing on Xmas?
Ergo: DON'T go! BaaaaaaHHhhh.

2002-12-25T23:04:00.000-08:00

My official leaving date is Jan 7 at 8 am which means I'll be at the airport at about 5. I'm having a going away party on the 4th though, hopefully at a club if I can get Gwen to split the cost. Cross your fingers *~*

2002-12-21T11:57:00.000-08:00

I find writing everything I do everyday here really exhausting so I think that from now on I'll try to cut down to only the important things and in my notebook diary remember everything I do. For today I just want to talk about this wonderful feeling I had the other day. I had just finished watching Lonely Planet (one of my fav shows) and I was lying on my bed about to sleep when I just had this utter feeling of contentment and peace. I was just so happy with the world because I realised how truly lucky I am. I am part of the upper 10% of the world's population who lives in a firstworld country, I have enough food to eat, a roof over my head, the ability to =choose= what types of clothes to wear, and the opportunity to go to a good university and hold a good,steady job.
We hear these things so often that we grow cynical to our supposed 'blessings' but one day it'll hit you, you really are blessed. Perhaps it was because the lonely planet show was about madagascar, this poor african island. Maybe I needed to see a lot of poverty before I could appreciate wealth.
Whatever. The point is at that moment, I really felt, from the tips of my toes, how really lucky I am. I am blessed and I just wish I could share this feeling with everyone. I just felt all my old wants and envyishness of people who are really rich (don't we all just wish that we could be as rich as so and so every once in a while?) just melt away and I was happy just the way I am. I wish I could share the feeling with you, it's so hard to describe meaningfully but to all of my readers out there, this is my new years wish for you; I wish that you too can experience this utter sense of contentment and happiness and that it will stay with you always.
Happy Holidays! ::)

2002-12-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

Today I furtively clicked on ABOVE to earn my 10 cents per click then realised that my internet fee is higher than that and that it makes no diff. BAAAAAH!!! so what am I going to do?

I'm going to tell YOU to click on the search engine links ABOVE every DAY and to tell ALL your friends TOO so I can get RICH!

Thank you. Yesterday I sold all my old magazines to the used bookstore at Bras Basah for the miserly sum of 30 cents each w/ a total of 6 bucks. Big deal. Do you know how heavy it was to carry those magazines from city hall mrt to bras basah? VERY heavy. And did any guy looking at my pitful face help? Noooooo. Bastards.

Ok if I'm totally honest, in this gender liberated world that's unfair to ask but fuck it couldn't someone, anyone whether guy or girl, take the trouble to say "Hey do you need some help with that?" as I struggled all the way? Spineless cowards. hate the world.

Because of my magazine selling, my left arm is hurting cause of all that lifting. I am sooo mad at people. Is it a singaporean thing or just a bastard thing? Cause I have this sneaking suspicion that in Vancouver SOMEONE would have lent me a hand.

2002-12-15T00:51:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, a synopsis of my week:
Sat (yesterday), did errands the whole day, bought new aiwa cd player w/free batteries thrown in for $85 after fierce haggling and sucking up to the salesman, fri went to an over the top christian rock concert & had fried oysters w/ mum at chinatown, tues and wed at debate chalet, came this close to murdering jinesh, thurs went home then to the beach with sharon and debbie and it fucking rained, sun (today) am going to watch SPECIAL UNIT TWO!!!!

2002-12-15T00:46:00.000-08:00

So you still want to know what me, Gwen and Su did at the lesbian bar that week ago eh? Well you're never going to know till you click on one of the search engine links above!!!!! Arm-twisting aside you're never going to know because I've decided to keep it secret,dark and lovely. I've had a lot of beautiful, random phrases running around in my mind.
Lovely in her bones
Actually I can't remember the rest but when it comes, I'll write it down.

2002-12-13T20:52:00.000-08:00

Click on the above and earn ME money.

My story of the month:
One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.
She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?"
Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."
The little girl thought about this revelation for while and then said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

2002-12-08T03:03:00.000-08:00

Haven't been on the net much, Mon was grad night, hilarious that it was only the principal on the dance floor. Tues, slept all day. Wed, went out with Nidhi, watched freaky french movie. Thurs, watched Amazing Race with Andrew, was absolute crap, S'pore only in last half hour, and so tame as to be any stupid place. I wanna see Flo eat laksa man. Complete rubbish, and only once again reinforced my belief that Mediacorp is a bunch of fat cats feasting on govt dividends and should be fired, bunch of scumbags. How dare they take my TV taxes and waste my airtime? Channel I all the way now!!!
Friday went to Faliq's house for Hari Raya, Sat went out with Gwen & Su-Ching, ate at Hans for the first time, intriguing chinese western food, Sun stoned all day. yee-haw.

2002-12-01T03:36:00.000-08:00

Spent the day at home today. Looked out and saw the gorgeous day and debated going to the pool to (guess what I'm going to say, it starts with a t and ends with a n) and swim but was too lazy. mwa. ha. ha. I did get tan from yesterday but it's not that great, my stomach is still hmm...w h i t e. Ok lah, there're pple starving in africa etc, etc, but right now all I want is a tan because there's no way I'm going to have that in montreal. :P
Anyways I went to the airport with my mum because she wanted to ask some q's about how much luggage we can bring and for the first time, I traversed the whole airport completely. What did I find? That all the amenities are for passengers not visitors. Poop! No free phone calls, internet connection, showers, movies, gardens, good shopping etc,etc, unless you enter the passenger hall. Bah. Rotten captalists. Now you know why you pay airport tax. On a high note, special unit 2 is on!!

2002-11-30T04:11:00.000-08:00

Went to Silosa today to tan with Sharon. No cute guys to eye. oh well. Didn't feel like looking anyways. Spent the day lying on my butt watching cute dogs swim (2 labradors and one black chihuhua puppy), play ball and dig their heads into the sand. Went to orchard to buy whipping cream with Sharon and bumped into debate pple. Bought a lime green shirt w/ them for dylan the dildo then went home. Turns out my "tan" is only slightly tan. damn! thinking of doing a fake one. I am sooo interesting aren't I?

2002-11-29T02:11:00.000-08:00

What Kind of Beauty Are You?
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2002-11-29T02:05:00.000-08:00

Feel too sad to write anything so I'll just say good night.

2002-11-27T02:09:00.000-08:00

I woke up at one today after sleeping at three in the morning after going clubbing with Gwen and Su Ching..wooAaaAaaa...Gwen woke up at 8 believe it or not, (she was sleeping over), she must have a metabolism of a bloody rhino..anyways today all I did was pick up my blazer and go out for lunch with Ra (the flathead one *hee* j/k) then went home and played. A day of recovery. Bought a aquamarine hawaii print bikini though! *muacks to that* Tmr I'll think about telling the whole story of last night, too dazed now.

2002-11-24T22:49:00.000-08:00

Spent the whole day at home today. Did nothing much but sleep,eat,swim and play computer games. narf.

2002-11-24T21:50:00.000-08:00

What should YOU be for Halloween?
You should be a Princess! You would look absolutely beautiful as one! If you're a guy then you'd make a handsome prince! :D
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2002-11-24T01:20:00.000-08:00

I met Nydia today,it was quite an amazing coincidence, we were both on the same north train, I sat down, our eyes met, bugged slightly, and we realised it was the other! So we we got up,did the hugs and exclaiming bit (hey for a gf of five years she deserves the best, man) and wow it was great. She's changed, well not really, her hair is dyed,her eybrows're plucked (ok I'm obsessing but that's cause I still think that STUPID woman at hollywood secrets plucked mine unevenly, so I tend to stare at other pple's eyebrows. UGH) and she's wearing hazel contacts but that's not really a "change" cause it's the kind of thing I'd expect her to do. Just think that her hair color isn't that great haha.

There's always this awkward moment, when two people who haven't seen each other for a bit meet up, but you know, when you become good enough and long enough friends it's easy to overcome that. So we walked and shopped around and it made me remember what a cool person nyd is. That always happens when I go out with an old friend, it makes me remember why I became friends with them in the first place.

Ok I'm going off-track but there you go. The one thing that makes me wistful about old friends though, is that I feel sad about all the things in their lives that I'm missing because we've gone apart because of life. Who knows what ups and downs and momentous events has been happening in all of their lives, what changes have happened to them? The same old people I once knew are not there anymore, a newly moulded and different person remains, with only the core essence,the soul, whatchmacallit remaining. Still that's all that matters isn't it? :)

2002-11-24T00:46:00.000-08:00

Which ridiculously attractive model are you?
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2002-11-24T00:40:00.000-08:00

Which woman of Shakespeare are you?
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2002-11-24T00:33:00.000-08:00

What Sign of Affection Are You?
footsie-you like to goof around and laugh with the people you care about.
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2002-11-23T00:13:00.000-08:00

Today I spent the afternoon suntanning and reading at the swimming pool. Got darker but not golden. hmm. maybe I need to go there again. this time I used suntanning oil though. I will persevere until I become a golden hotdog! I went to causeway pt today to pick up some stuff and I meandered into popular and what did I find? Monkey island for $18.90, Ceaser 3 for $19 and everquest for $6. OH MY GOD!!!! I have this searing suspicion that they're pirated but this is a big =shop= for goodness's sakes so it can't be, right? Anyways when I try them later I'll see. heheh even if they're pirated, I'll report them to microsoft and pick up some cash so it's win-win for me. Am still in the midst of knitting a white scarf and planning for the BBQ. Look out world!

2002-11-22T00:16:00.000-08:00

Jia hui, you airhead, go look in my archives if you want to see yourself. pffft.

Sylvanus, I can't keep it a secret anymore. I have to tell you this. Your band is God to me. I could die for every word you guys sing. My heart beats frantically everytime one of you comes near. I live for the hours I sneak into your homes and ruffle through your stinky boxers. Do you think I can start a mosque to you?

Andrew I can live with a couple of html errors, they make my life exciting. *biiigggg poke* go obsess about how cool Livia is k? =P

and to all a good night!

2002-11-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

I am so excited. I've had this great idea for a mega-bbq. I'm thinking 50+ people here. This is so going to be cool! On another sidenote I stayed at home today playing lara croft. Bada-boom!

2002-11-18T02:17:00.000-08:00

Went out with Sharon from church, now in NJ today..it IS possibly to shop the whole day without buying anything hehehe...we just trawled through wisma and taka trying on everything and imagining what we'd like to be...I have my heart set on a Zara winter coat. OOOOoooooooH! gimme! I love my zara, only thing is, these days it's too common. STUPID IDIOTS GO AWAY FROM MY SHOP! ok lah dumb hah but you know I really love exclusivity. :) Have arranged to streak hair and go tanning at silosa next sat with sharon and debbie (the NJ one) woohoo! now all I need is liposuction..*smirk*

2002-11-12T19:19:00.000-08:00

wow long time since I've blogged..today my mum found a rat in the kitchen at 1 am..so freaky~! so I immediately left home and went to my uncle's to sleep cause there was no bloody way I was going to stay in the same flat with a rat. Bubonic plague and God knows what!

feel kind of soppy all day..did something stupid at Su's bday party and I made a big ruckus with my class/teacher just days away from my going away party...am I a genius or what? *sigh* add to that other problems with other friends and I am not very happy...

2002-11-05T18:43:00.000-08:00

went to Gowri's home for Deepavali. foooodddd...! My favorite part was Jinesh worshipping (sp?) the tandoori chicken. And faliq's arabian night shoes.

2002-10-28T21:23:00.000-08:00

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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2002-10-28T21:09:00.000-08:00

RA-coon, geez if it was me I'd want them BOTH to be unhappy. but good on you gf. I think. :o)

Smacky-girl I liked that "fester of a lester" part *HEH HEH HEH*. hmm maybe if you were more good, horse boy wouldn't have thought that maybe you didn't want help. See? That's what happens when you have a bad girl rep. ;) Idiot, if I'd been around you should have called me or su and we'd have pried fester-boy off. See? Actually I'm glad I didn't go, I don't want to see a police raid. ew.
Guys hurling. brainless twats, who asked them to be drunk bums? Men are all bums! bums! bums!

Anyways, today is tues, went to school to pick up my report card and am now contemplating whether i should go for t&f training or not. Laziness vs. losing weight. More updates tmr. o&o.

2002-10-27T19:36:00.000-08:00

Today I went to school to collect my report card and vote for next year's class comm. Which turned out to be postponed to tomorrow. HAHAHAHA. oh well so I'll go tmr. *grump* The weekend was good, on Sat I bought a new blouse and a spaghetti strap sundress from Far East plaza, which I shouldn't have, but I still love them. I have this sneaking feeling that I had better earn a lot of money when I grow up otherwise my spending habits are going to bankrupt me..Damn where're the trust funds when you need them?

I played pool w/debate people on Sat (Faliq wasn't there can you imagine him in a pool hall? *hee*) then in the evening I went out with my cousin whom I'm going to miss when I move...*grump* We spent the whole evening laughing at the stupid Marche uniforms..they're making them wear pointy grey Swiss shepherd hats, berms and suspenders, all they need are cows to milk...*HEH* I expected them to burst out yodelling at any moment... and where is Heidi? Sun I spent playing computer games and Mon I came...to school. blaaagh

2002-10-27T19:22:00.000-08:00

Have decided not to embarass myself online again and am therefore never going to bitch, blame or moan online again. HA. :OP THAT will be on a DIFFERENT blog. (I gave out this addy too much already) So NYAHppppffff to all you internet watchers out there anyway.

2002-10-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

Haven't been going to school for days... Today I went to school just to fix the comm service forms. It sucks being good. Realised that some snot didn't want to buy my furniture after all after I checked my mail. Bah. They're not WORTH my furniture, now how am I going to peddle it off? Going out later with debate people, *so fun!* I am so going to miss them all. We're a TEAM, you know. I think we're like the closest debate team out of =all= the jcs. We rock!

2002-10-16T20:58:00.000-07:00

	You are Miss Piggy! You're something of a diva, but that's only because it would be a crime to let your looks and talent go to waste. Vous êtes magnifique!
*Take the What Muppet Are You?* Quiz!**

2002-10-16T20:20:00.000-07:00

take the taboo quiz.

and go to mewing.net. nothing is taboo there.

2002-10-16T20:19:00.000-07:00

I'm doing all of Ra's quizzes..hee...well impersonation is the sincerest form of flattery... =P

2002-10-16T20:15:00.000-07:00

because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: "you enjoy sitcoms, popcorn, horses, and perhaps surfboarding. you lost your virginity either very early (under the age of eleven) or very late (over the age of thirty). you take politics and religion very seriously, and when you were a kid, you had a penchant for getting lost in shopping malls and/or amusement parks. your favorite color is most likely blue or green, and you are terrified of spiders."
whatever will laura tell you??

2002-10-16T20:11:00.000-07:00

Today was so-so, I skipped all the lectures but I went for chem & math tutorial. (Aren't I a good girl?) but I had to stay back for grad day rehersals. Ugh.Then I went out for dinner with Drew and a farewell dinner for the T&F seniors. Damn my little round belly is cute. On a sad note T&F training is starting again and I can feel my muscles aching in sympathy already...eeee should I quit? But I like running...well at least the calorie burning.

2002-10-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

take the butt quiz.

and go to mewing.net. why not visit the site of someone who made a quiz about butts?

2002-10-16T19:57:00.000-07:00

2002-10-15T01:38:00.000-07:00

I got in on the first try! Ok I'm easily amused...*hee*. I just spent the whole weekend in a blissful bliss slagging around, enjoying the euphoria of having no exams...Sat I went to the beach with SC which was ok but not that great, I guess cause I don't have close close friends in SC just friends so it was mildly boring. (Who said I was politically correct?) Then I went out for lunch with one of my closest friends, Nidhi which was =wonderful= except Serving Sara was crap. (There were some memorable moments though, I rather liked the line "F you cowboy". ) Sunday, monday and tues I slept, watched TV and played the Sims which can be addictive. Or maybe it's because I'm a closet meglomaniac. *hee* notice my bliss Imood? ;)

2002-10-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

Sign my guestbook!

2002-10-11T04:36:00.000-07:00

Fuck you too, "blogger bad-login". Excuse the bad language, I just spent four tries just to bloody well login. HA. I'm going to miss you too horse boy. In fact I think I'm going to miss a lot of things.

Why does life have to be so complicated..dun dah dun dah

'Scuse the avril lavaigne but despite what she does she still has good songs.
Anyways. I'm not gonna be sad on this thing.On a high note I bought goat cheese today. Laugh! Laugh! Laugh! But it tastes good.. mmmm.... Shopping always leaves this warm,contented feeling in me..and these days I need it! I think I'm going to be alone again..nyahahaha.

2002-09-26T19:34:00.000-07:00

*sucks eggs* Promos. *sucks eggs s'more*

2002-09-17T18:08:00.000-07:00

You know there's nothing quite like forgetting one's password. Dammit, I just spent ten minutes typing in different login names and passwords!!!! Capitalist Bastards!!! I have also just realised that I'm a whiny loser and am now deleting ALL my entries. On second thought maybe not. I'm narcissistic. and I like the blonde picture. Actually I'm not a bimbo but I wouldn't mind being one.. Come on, blondes DO have more fun. And on that somewhat questionable note, I'll call it a day. Besides I want red hair.

2002-06-17T19:49:00.000-07:00

ooo I like this quote.. "I don't like children. They're small, ugly and they smell" neeheehee..

2002-06-17T19:44:00.000-07:00

Ireland got knocked out of the world cup by Spain. Am now hating Spaniards with a vengeance bordering on obsession. No habla espanol.

2002-06-17T19:43:00.000-07:00
Bored...Hated LTC...realised that I talk rubbish here...(woo hoo!) Went to Ra's blog...really messy...*hee*

2002-04-29T22:21:00.000-07:00
I think I'm schizo. I took the test three times and that's the order of results from the bottom up. I am NOT a bimbo!